Massive Weight Loss Ain’t All Unicorns and Puppy Dogs… Consequences!

Before you watch my latest vlog I feel compelled to address two issues up front.

1. Yes, I say “um” a lot. I am hyper aware and working on it. Long time public speaking weakness made worse by the fact that I do NOT script these in any way, shape, or form. I decide on a topic and then I ramble on camera. Kind of like how I write. ;-)

2. What’s with the hat you ask? I am going through another round of massive hair loss (from the weight loss  – not unusual) and it’s even MORE apparent when my hair is really short as it is now. So basically, my hair looks like complete shit these days but there’s nothing I can do until it starts growing out again.

Okay now on with the show!

Back In Black + Launch of New Video Blog

Miss me? Nah, I didn’t think so. This blog had gotten pretty darn boring after all. You can only write about the same twenty pounds going up and down, up and down, up and down (repeat at least 3 more times) before people start to lose interest.

Hell I was losing interest. Not in losing the weight – never that! Just in writing about how STUCK I was.

Yes, you caught that didn’t you? The use of a past tense verb.

Was.

Glorious was!

Before I get to that however, let me quickly catch you up on happenings since my last post a few months ago.

June 3, 2014… I was back below 200 again! The next week would bring another several pounds lost, until once more I would teeter on the verge of being at a NEW LOW WEIGHT (below 195.4) since I started the whole program in October of 2012. Now of course every other time I have gotten close, I have completely sabotaged myself and bounced back up. But surely that was not going to happen again?

Not only did I sabotage myself, I had a 3 week binge-a-thon of epic scale. I cannot believe how many calories I consumed on most days. I cannot believe that I never felt full, much less seriously ill (as I should have!). But in any case, the end result was not only moving away from my “new low weight” but in fact getting back up to 218.6 pounds by June 30.

Yes. I gained 22 pounds in about 3 weeks.

UGH.

Then on July 1st the lord appeared to me in the form of a burning bush and commanded that I repent. Okay not really but the end result was kind of the same. My damn binge eating lightbulb switch (on/off on/off) was finally flipped back to off. As the smoke cleared, I looked around at the damage and decided I needed to go all in. Not tomorrow. Now. Right away. Whatever the mental/emotional block was that I kept hitting around 195, I needed to get over that bitch once and for all.

I went back to the mindset of “my ONLY job right now, ONLY priority, is losing weight. Everything and everyone else needs to come second for a while. period.

I also resumed taking Phentermine – which I had been off for a long time – because I was going to throw every damn tool at my disposal at being successful this time.

So that was July 1 and now it’s August 14. I have taken off all the weight I had regained, and lost an additional 8 pounds. I was 188 this morning.

Most of the rest of my weight loss group has started transitioning back to food, I was supposed to start last week. I didn’t.

I have been so on target the last 6-7 weeks and it’s been so gloriously EASY again to be on only meal replacements. I feel great. And as I thought about it, I simply could not imagine anything more self-destructive and filled with sabotage than my reintroducing food right at the time that I am finally cruising in a new lower weight loss zone. Absurd!

So, I am staying on all meal replacements until…

Either I start cheating, and then I’ll need to focus on trying to eat moderately, or else I start feeling poorly (physically). Or I run out of meal replacements.

I don’t think it will be more than another 8-10 weeks, but I could lose another 15-20 pounds in that time. That’s a lot! I think I could do it this time!

Yes, I have said that before. :-)

In any case, in an effort to raise my game and keep this entertaining for all of us, I am also going to do some video blogs in the comings weeks in which I’ll cover some of the reasons I have been successful.

Yes, I have been successful. The videos will not be about my struggles to lose more weight, they will be focused on the reasons/tools that have enabled me to keep off more than 100 pounds for over a year at this point. Far longer than I have ever kept major weight off in all my prior attempts.

So… short intro video coming for new “viewers” (you guys already know the basics) and then I’ll start some topic based videos.

Allez!

So How’s Stupid Working Out So Far?

Not bad actually. Though I have not been nearly stupid enough!  Not sire, I have been working out every day, but only one hour of hardish cardio. I should be doing at least 90-120 minutes if I wanted to be exceptionally stupid. I’m working up to being dumber!

In the meanwhile, there is still hope I’ll hit 190 by June 21… not a lot but some! I should be under 200 in the next few days, which leaves me 19-20 days to lose 9-10 pounds. It’s possible.

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Whatever happens though, it’s very exciting to almost be back in ONEderland. It’s been a while as you can see from the chart, and I have not stayed UNDER 200 for very long any of the 3 times I went below it in the last 6 months or so.

This time will be different.

Once I get under 200 this time, I am never, ever going above it again. (Hayzues! Taylor Swift “we are never ever getting back together” just popped into my head. I hate that song almost as much as I detest her!”

As God is my witness… I’m going to live through this and when it’s all over, I’ll never be hungry over 200 pounds again. No, nor any of my folk. If I have to lie, steal, cheat or kill take appetite suppressants. :-) As God is my witness, I’ll never be hungry over 200 again.

28 Days of Stupid

So if you have noticed on the right hand side of the blog, I had signed up to do the Fatcyclist weight loss challenge some months back. I wanted to support Fatty’s awesome wife, Lisa, who is a World Bicycle Relief ambassador (and the challenge is a fundraiser for that), and also, I typically do well when there are eyes on me. The extra accountability seems to help.

I started at 222 and quickly lost 14 pounds. It was great!

Then I started eating. Pretty much everything in sight. Well almost everything.

I adore small children but couldn’t possibly eat a whole one.

It was a “farewell to food” grand tour. There were multiple pizza stages, mountains of popcorn, and a serious obsession with hand-crafted, double-dipped chocolate peanut butter cups I found at a local store. Christ-on-a-cracker, those things are so fucking awesome! And expensive. Especially because I ate a lot of them. And by a lot, I mean like 3,147. Just a rough estimate of course.

So it did not come entirely as a surprise when I gained some weight back. And it brought along some friends.

In the blink of eye (or rather stuffing of gob) I was back up to 227. The highest I had been in quite some time.

Fortunately, I was signed up for my medical weight loss management “Do Again” starting on April 16, and it’s been downhill again ever since.

Whew.

Now, I have been losing weight steadily since then, but after the first few days, it’s been s-l-o-w. Why has it been slow? Because I have not been moving my not-as-giant-but-still-pretty-damn-big butt. I have been extremely lazy. Well, working 50-60 hours a week plus having two kids kind of lazy, but still, I have not been exercising.

Until last night when I had a good, sweaty workout for the first time in 3 months. It was hardly shocker that I was down a full pound this morning. And then Rune and I went out on a short bike ride this morning and I intend to either walk or go to the gym again later today.

So, what does all of this have to do with each other?

Fatty’s weight loss challenge has exactly 28 days left. I originally had the goal of going from 222 to 175 during the challenge. Suffice to say, gaining 19 pounds during the challenge did not really help that cause. So I had reset my goal 190 instead by June 21. And if I had been exercising this last 5 weeks, I would be at least 5 pounds lighter, which would have made getting to 190 pretty darn possible, not even much of a stretch. But instead, I have 14 pounds left. One half pound a day. A burn deficit of 1750 calories a day.

But only for 28 days. Four measly weeks. Sheesh, that’s not much at all in the grand scheme of things. Heck, over a period of just 4 weeks, I could do all kinds of stupid. And if I did, if I really took this framework of the next 4 weeks to really push myself to new limits of stupid, I could reach 190, which is also 5 pounds below my lowest weight so far. I’d be in all new weight loss territory, with just 45 pounds left to lose (of the original 160) and 20 weeks remaining in the active weight loss phase of my program.

I’m going to do some really dumb things for the next 28 days. Try not to judge me!